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Stories in my veins.

Today, I was chatting with a friend of mine when I had to look down at the keyboard searching for a number. I don’t usually need to search around for letters but today I did and that’s not the case. I noticed my wrist, hands, not so thin but long fingers and my fair soft skin covering my flesh. I gazed at my veins stream, which are probably not popped out enough for me to recognized them, and then the image of my Grandma’s (May her pure soul rest in peace) hands vividly stroke my mind. I remembered how veiny and shaky her hands were. They were all full of light brown spots and ageing freckles. 

It amuses me how things change with no remarkable transition stage. I am almost 19 and I didn’t know the back of my hands so well, and I probably can’t remember how it looked like when I was six. I never noticed although I wish I had. It’s amusing how skin can scan the age in such a divine way. I know I am just talking about the skin of the hands now, let away the face, its marks, wrinkles and scars. Sub7an Allah. 

For this reason, I decided to keep a picture of my hands for I will compare it to my age-old-hands many many years from now only if I am meant to live for long enough. Maybe I will see my youth days rushing through my bloody veins, and maybe I will memorise the conversation I had with my bestfriend and the reason behind the picture. Who knows?

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